Are you kidding me?! She didn't say that to anyone else... just me! I froze. I wasn't even sure what to say. My only response was, "Um, maybe if I could afford it?" To which she said, "With that portfolio of work, you'd be paid for." She seriously thinks there is no doubt that I'd get a free pass to grad school. That's a lot coming from her. Can't say I've ever received a compliment that high. I mean, I was once compared to Rembrandt by a professor that was in love with my gestural drawings. I just thought she was insane. That's like blashpemy... Rembrandt... me... yeah right! I bow to Rembrandt's skill.
I'm just stunned over the grad school thing. It has never even crossed my mind. I didn't think I was up to par for such a thing. Is it even possible though? That's a lot of work. What I need is a job. I'm tens of thousands in debt because of my education already. How about someone pay my debts off instead of sending me to grad school? LOL I mean, I love learning. But I just can't imagine going to school any longer. To be honest, I have to claim ignorance on this. I guess I'd be going for a master's degree?? What good would that really do me? Not that long ago I was questioning whether my bachelor's degree was even worth all of the debt I've piled up. The money thing has been stressing me out for years, but it's awful now. My mom wants/needs her money back. She was my loan. My mom would kill me if I said I was going off to grad school and not focusing solely to pay her back.
How this all came up... today, my portfolio professor wanted us to bring in EVERYTHING we've ever done art-wise. I really couldn't bring it everything. I have tons. But I brought in a lot, because I went to an arts high school before college. We did college level work. Douglas Anderson School of the Arts is fantastic. An "A" school for a long time now! Go there if you can, young ones. Anyway, tangeriffic that was... I think I pulled several muscles carrying all of that stuff to class today, LOL. I'm still in pain. I feel sick, actually. Scary thing is a dropped my laptop bag twice. Everything seems fine though. Thank goodness. As a class we went through each student's work choosing what should be in their portfolio and what should not be. When it was my turn, most of my work was a "keep".
I'd take a photo of the portfolios I have of full of my work to show you, but I don't have a camera. Had to give mom her camera back after last semester *sigh*
I hope this sickness is just from overexerting myself and not from catching something. I don't have time to be sick!! I should probably be sleeping, but here I am typing and watching inauguration ball coverage. I'll have to journal about the inauguration tomorrow or something. I have reading to start after this for class.
Gosh, I just don't know what to think about this grad school thing. I'm not even sure who to talk to about it. If anyone has any thoughts on this, please opine. Should I not bother? Did you go? Did you want to go? Post here or e-mail me please.